I feel like it has been a hot minute. *Checks watch*. And by that I mean something along the lines of several months!
Some of you may have wondered where I’ve been. The answer is simple in some ways, but in others incredibly difficult. I feel like I wrestled a bit with God on trying to take my blog back for a while, until I finally realized that it was better off in His hands.
My life got incredibly busy. LIKE A lot. Some weeks it was more than I could do to stay in touch with my siblings, let alone extended family and friends.
I joined my new work team right before the busy season, and that came crashing down with all of the excitement and exhaustion of a 3 mile run that you’re never prepared for. My brain was taking on so much new information on a daily basis that trying to compartmentalize all of that, save it for later, and continue on with normal life, drove me physically into the ground.
I used to come home so exhausted that I’d hunch over my dinner, do lip service to a few random chores, and then fall into bed with absolutely no brain power left. Even reading a fiction book took too much out of me. My options were either to stare mindlessly at my phone, or just fall asleep. My eyes fell as early as 8:30 or 9 PM, which was incredibly odd for this night owl!
My schedule was dramatically switched. I used to work nights, and this big shift in my work life meant that had to turn myself into a morning person. I became really good about getting up with my alarm, working out and having an awesome morning routine. But all the craziness of my new work life left me collapsing into bed incredibly early.
Nights used to be my writing time. For years, I would hunker down ’til close to midnight, typing away either on blog projects or books. You can imagine how hard it was when that was taken away from me. I honestly couldn’t write even if I wanted to because my inspiration seemed to have fled the minute I set foot in the doors of my new workplace. And I don’t mean that in a negative way, as if work sucks the inspiration out of me. It doesn’t. At all. It fuels my desire to put characters to pages. But it was almost as if God knew it would be too much for me to have so many amazing ideas and not be able to act on them, so he just kind of left that part of my brain dormant for a season.
The inspiration and motivation that was missing belonged to blogging and writing in general. I am hoping to get over my fear of picking up a pen at this point, but during this time of just releasing it to Him, He has spoken a lot to my heart and allowed me to experience creativity in other ways. I find great joy in writing poems here and there. Ones from Him or to Him and they have really been an awesome part of my quest to know Him more. I’ve also gotten to journal a lot which is an awesome, free form of therapy that really helps me examine my heart and what His is for me. But that’s the extent of the writing I have been able to do in this season.
Now that the huge learning curve of my new job is over, (or so I think) I am excited to delve into a few more projects. I will slowly be adding things into my life to see if they work and stick with the core values I have been asked to steward. I want to make sure most importantly that I am doing what God wants me to do. With that being said, I’m not going to make any promises here on the blog because I honestly don’t know what God has in store. The only thing I can promise you, is that I won’t be able to blog three times a week as has been my normal for the last 3+ years.
After taking this summer off to breathe and clear my head, I can tell you I’m excited to see what God has in store for this blog! I miss you, my internet family! Without my blog and other social venues, I wouldn’t have been able to meet so many fantastic people.
So thank you for your patience as I figure out how to balance life to the best of my ability and let God do the leading. Let me know if there’s something you want to hear more about or see here on the blog. I’m playing with lots of ideas and I want to hear what you enjoy seeing the most! So make sure you leave a comment with your ideas and desires for the blog!
What would you like to see more of? Videos? Word posts? Writing, fashion, etc. What topics do you enjoy? What is something you wish you could ask me?
Thank you all for being there, even during this long hiatus! I look forward to socializing with you all in the near future! Stay tuned!